It’s Been Awhile

It’s been awhile since I could hold my head up high,
It’s been awhile since I first saw you,
It’s been awhile since I could stand on my own two feet again,
It’s been awhile since I could call you.

And everything I can’t remember,
It’s blocked a passage only seen,
The consequences that I caused her,
I’ve stretched myself beyond my means.

It’s been awhile since I could say that I wasn’t addicted, and,
It’s been awhile since I consider I love myself as well as,
It’s been awhile since I’ve gone and fucked things up just like I always do,
It’s been awhile but all that shit seems to disappear when I’m with you.

And everything I can’t remember,
It’s blocked a passage only seen,
The consequences that I caused her,
I’ve gone and fucked things up again…

Why must I feel this way,
Just make this go away,
Just want a place to be.

And it’s been awhile since I could look at myself straight,
And it’s been awhile since I said I was sorry,
And it’s been awhile since I’ve seen the candles light up on your face,
And it’s been awhile but I can still remember just the way you taste.

And everything I can’t remember,
It’s blocked a passage only seen,
Can I blame this on my father?
And blame the best that came from me?

It’s been awhile since I could hold my head up high,
And it’s been awhile since I said I was sorry