cause in my mind it's all a waste of time and there's no excuse at all then i realize, surprise you were right all along guilty as charged i've been convicted and tried was it too much to ask for you to take my side cause there's nothing here left to defend when it's always me that you blame in the end nothing is what it seems, to me you're sleeping without the dreams without you, nothing defines me over and over i keep wondering why then i give up and see that look in your eyes cause if i trip and fall, i'll be to blame and if i hit the wall, i'll still be the same wasting your time with your so called friends the one's you adore and the one's you pretend and it's kind of sad and deranged but it's not so bad that it can't be explained and i want to know have i gone too far have i sunk to brand new low and i want to know if i've gone too far cause i've lost all my self control cause in my mind it's the perfect crime and there's no excuse at all then i realize surprise you were right all along when i'm slipping away, it's only you that can find me and i over my head again i'm falling from end to end