It's Been Awhile

And it's been awhile since I could hold my head up high,
And it's been awhile since I first saw you,
And it's been awhile since I could stand on my own two feet again,
And it's been awhile since I could call you.

And everything I can’t remember,
It's fucked up as it always seems,
The consequences that are rendered,
I’ve stretched myself beyond my means.

And it's been awhile since I can say that I wasn’t addicted, and,
And it's been awhile since I can say "I love myself as well" and
It's been awhile since I’ve gone and fucked things up just like I always do,
And it's been awhile but all that shit seems to disappear when I’m with you.

And everything I can’t remember,
It's fucked up as it always seems,
The consequences that I've rendered,
I’ve gone and fucked things up again, yeah

Why must I feel this way,
Just make this go away,
Just one more peaceful day.

And it's been awhile since I could look at myself straight,
And it's been awhile since I said I'm sorry,
And it's been awhile since I’ve seen way the candles light your face,
And it's been awhile but I can still remember just the way you taste.

And everything I can’t remember,
It's fucked up as it always seems, to be (I know its me)
I cannot blame this on my father.
He did the best he could for me.

And it's been awhile since I could hold my head up high,
And it's been awhile since I said I'm sorry